I didn’t know what I was getting into.
Exactly a year ago, on Thanksgiving 2009, I revealed my super secret “creative project” to my family. Up until that day, Embrace the Detour was just a figment of my imagination. Yes, I owned the domain name and yes, I had paid someone to design the site (back then, I knew exactly nothing about HTML and the ins and outs of Wordpress), but since no one knew about ETD, I could pretend it didn’t exist.
But I didn’t want to. Not back then, anyway. Shot through with third trimester pregnancy hormones, I was raring to go. I didn’t want to wait until Lil Mil arrived. Eager to convince myself (and everyone else) that I COULD DO THIS! I started working on my first post (which, I’ll admit, took me over a week to write).
While certainly supportive, my family had mixed feelings about this creative project of mine. Husband in particular was lukewarm. He was excited that I was excited, but at the same time, he was worried that I was taking on too much.
Of course at the time I didn’t realize that. I honestly believed that I could write — and finish! — a novel in the first three months of my baby’s life, and I said as much on my Because page. Believe me, if I’d known how incredibly hard the undertaking would prove to be, I never would’ve made such a grand (and public) pronouncement.
Thank God I didn’t know.
By the time I realized what I’d signed up for, it was too late. There were too many people watching and, even more than that, too many people telling me to give up. It was too much, they said.
They were right, of course, but I refused to accept that. So I kept at it. Kept juggling. Kept struggling. Kept writing.
But I kept at it. Kept juggling. Kept struggling. Kept writing.
And today, one year after this blog was born and 10 months and 8 days after my baby was born, I have a completed novel to show for it. And! On top of that, I have something unexpected. A community. This community. Friends! Not the fake, we-met-over-the-Internet kind, but the real, live, we-met-over-the-Internet kind. Friends like Rachel of MWF Seeking BFF (who I met in person two weeks ago and am now obsessed with. Rachel, if I move to Chicago can I please be your BFF?)
Thank God for unrealistic expectations. Thank God for this blog and the book that came out of it. Thank God for the baby who’s made all the juggling and struggling worthwhile. Thank God for the boy who is juggling and struggling with me, holding my hand while I do it.
And thank God for you, my friends.